the writing of a thousand pens is still just ink.

Sat, 02 Jul 2005 01:07:02 GMT

yet another widget update

i'm just testing out LiVEWIDGET.
im telling you, i dont see why everyone doesnt use a mac.

this widget is much better than the last one, btw.
it allows me to bold, italicize, underline, post an image, and lj-cut with a simple click

it also lets me view my journal.
if anyone here is using a Mac and is running OS X 10.4 Tiger,
click here to get LiVEWIDGET

test

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 21:35:54 GMT

alright. so i'm updating this using a "widget".
a widget is a small, simple application that is run under the Mac OS 10.4 Tiger Dashboard. Widgets can range from a simple clock to an application that gives addresses and phone numbers of businesses in your area to an application that searches, displays, and copies to your iPod, the lyrics for the current song playing in iTunes.
widgets can be accessed by a keyboard shortcut. mine is F12. so all i have to do is hit F12 and i have access to the yellow pages, an infinite number of maps, the weather for the world, a satellite view of my area from the weather channel, lyrics without even typing in the name of a song, a dictionary, a translator, stock graphs, movie times, and i even have pac-man.

i do believe that i have proved once and for all that the Mac is better than the PC.

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 20:08:26 GMT

LAME

my FTP server isnt working right so that game isnt going to be up until i get it working correctly again.
i'll keep you posted.

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 20:42:01 GMT

hey everyone.
i think im gonna start a little game for whoever's interested.
its kinda like n0t pr0n.

im going to be starting it tomorrow.

for those of you who havent played n0t pr0n,
its basically a game where you have to find a username and password to get to the next level.
theres a few different ways to do it in each level, and theres always a way that you can cheat.

but to even start playing the game, you have to find the address.
ill give you a hint. its somewhere in this entry.

ill tell you where to start looking tomorrow.
but dont like... think that its going to be an amazing game.
its just something ive thrown together..

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 20:40:35 GMT

Am I more than you bargained for yet
I've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear
Cause that's just who I am this week
Lie in the grass, next to the mausoleum
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(A notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)

Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it

Is this more than you bargained for yet
Oh don't mind me I'm watching you two from the closet
Wishing to be the friction in your jeans
Isn't it messed up how I'm just dying to be him
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(Notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)

Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it

Down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down (down, down)
Down, down (down, down)
We're going down, down (down, down)
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 19:37:10 GMT

hey john.
thanks for hating us.
i guess we cant hang out this summer, and i guess you won that bet.
i hope you're happy johnno.
but yeah we all think you hate us for a really stupid reason so if you want to take it back, go ahead. but you know what, whatever.
but please stop being a bitch.

so long, and goodnight.

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 02:46:38 GMT

you walk as if you bear a heavy burden
i....
i dunno.

lately i havent been thinking a whole lot.
and... i really need to think about some things.
so if i seem weird just... accept it.
or dont accept it. whatever.
i dont feel all here.

i kinda feel numb. again.
i hate that feeling.
i feel like...
i know what i feel like.
it feels surreal.

but then that happens, and i feel fine.
im getting too predictable for myself.
gotta change that.

goodnight, guys.
and if there are any readers out there,
im sorry that you cant make sense of this.
i barely can

so dont feel so bad.

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 02:06:51 GMT

hahaha....
its finally starting to feel like the end of the school year.
its getting really warm,
the days seem to be really d r a w n o u t .
and school isnt seeming so bad.

i've been driving a lot lately. i dont mind it so much now.
man... about a month until i'll be able to do it by myself.

oh, i can not wait until then.

well i'm going to go to sleep.
i'm not gonna wear a shirt like i usually do, becuase it is really really warm.
just thought i would share. :)

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 20:50:58 GMT

you know whats really been bugging me?

people using gamerslang when they dont play video games in which they would use this slang.

gamerslang includes words like:

n00b
nub
w00t
0wned
pwned
fragged
r0xz0r
suxz0r
anything else with the suffix -z0r
the prefix uber-
j00
leet, LE37, L33T, L337

and a few other words.

and when people try to say stuff like STFU, OMG, JK, and BRB in a face to face conversation.

i dont even understand why, but i just hate it so much.

thanks, nick, for helping me think of other words.

rah!

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 03:23:09 GMT

frustratingfrustratingfrustratingfrustratingfrustratingfrustratingfrustrating

if you have something to tell me, please, for the love of god and my sanity,
dont say "i have something to tell you but im not going to tell you now."

if you have something to say, then dont tell me in advance.
it drives me insane.
and i lose sleep over it.

♣♥♦♠if i ask you, i care.♣♥♦♠

&explosion;
&frustration;

Sun, 29 May 2005 14:30:52 GMT

shit.
and i thought my life wasnt interesting.

i'm lost and i dont know what to do.
and on top of that, my wireless router isnt working.

heh
--

Tue, 17 May 2005 03:41:25 GMT

like i said i would get over it soon.
sometimes you just need to cry
and it was sooner than i thought.

i really love talking to jess.
like, actually talking.
and im glad that i did.

im in a mood that i cant describe. its a good mood though.

but please, disregard the previous entry.
it was a random explosion.
i do that from time to time, if i dont vent my frustration out any other way.
and i havent been singing much.

remind me to sing more.
goodnight.

Tue, 17 May 2005 02:22:55 GMT

i need to get off of this island.i need to get off of this island.i need to get off of this island.i need to get off of this island.i need to get off of this island.i need to get off of this island.i need to get off of this island.i need to get off of this island.

stuff is starting to get to me and i dont like it why cant i be how i used to be and take everything like a joke i used to not care i used to think life was great i used to i used to i used to i cant take it anymore i dont know it shouldnt get to me it shouldnt i wish i was younger i dont think i can take college i dont think i can take graduation i dont think i can take leaving everyone again i dont have a past its not there anymore i cant go back i have to go forward please disregard this entry by tomorrow morning ill be over this its the way i am ill try to do things different ill try to ill try try try try try ill be alright really this entry doesnt mean a thing i just wanted to vent and i didnt feel like writing i felt like typing becuase its less work its easier i like it better i needed this entry to get something off my chest and i feel like ive accomplished that in this punctuationless block of text that shouldnt have been read by anyone i feel bad i apologize if you have read this its not like me this is it im done

stop the boat.

realization

Sat, 14 May 2005 03:54:25 GMT

hey.
i have it really easy.
i have a car.
i was accepted to every college i applied to.
i can go to the one i want to go to.
i know what i want to do with my life and i basically can do it.
and im not failing all my classes in school.
i dont have anything tragic happening in my life.
and im basically set for the next few years.

i dont like it though.
becuase i dont actually know how it feels to not get what i want.
everything always works out for me. it always finds a way to work out.
im not a fan.

thanks for listening.
i owe you one.
goodnight--

Tue, 10 May 2005 02:45:15 GMT

cause youre everywhere to me.

so today, school wasnt amazing. it was regular boring school.
a few crappy washburn jokes, mrs. penske being a psycho.
im going to go insane if i have to take this for much longer.

i got to hang out with jess today_{(which made the day much better)} .
we watched edward scissor hands. it was a really good movie.
and ive realized that me and jess are in no way normal.
and i love it.

cause im back to save the world, once again.

Mon, 09 May 2005 01:41:47 GMT

well here i am again.
figured id give this a try one more time.

life is good.

so im too lazy to give a recap of the last... what is it, six months since i previously updated?
but i will give a recap of...

today:
i got in the car with my mom today and i turned on the radio in her car.
a cd was in and she started to sing along with it.
funny thing was it was my Lost Prophets cd.
and she knew the words.
my mom is probably the coolest person i have ever met.

yesterday:
was jess' brothers confirmation party.
it was good times.
and i also decided that i do not want to drink.
its not just like a bet anymore, i feel like id be letting everyone down if i did something like that.

so hey.
although this wasnt the most riveting,
at least it was an update.

later.

Fri, 19 Nov 2004 01:14:48 GMT

listen up guys.
those last two entrys?
i didnt write em.
i let one of my friends write em.
but you know, it was weird, that last entry.

so just letting everyone know that i didnt write that poem.

anyway.
i havent wwritten for a while.

so im kinda bored right now. ive got no creative insight for photoshop, i dont feel like playing video games.
im really out of things to do.

yeha, im going.
ill talk later.
--

Thu, 28 Oct 2004 02:10:37 GMT

i was once the king of spain.

so im really happy.
and this week's been fun.
last night i went with mike to andrews house. and we hung out for a few hours. frank got the new GTA. fun stuff, if i do say so myself.

then today i hung out with sam.
we went to get clothes for our italian project.
so it was off to north shore thrift. we got there and what do you know. there was three or four guys looking for girls clothes. like us!
i think im gonna make a hot sleeping beauty.

after the thrift store, it was off to.... where ever we were going.
anyway. we got lost, kinda, and wound up in coram. so i give sam directions back to sound beach and we decide to go to annies house. so we get ther and sam pulls into her driveway and calls her, or annie called sam, i cant remember.
but theyre talking and we get out of the car and run into her backyard. and we go onto her trampoline. then annie comes outside and we're all on the trampoline.
so we go inside to go see annies myspace, and then we were on the road again, with another person, to party hardy this time.
we got a nice wig for me. and some face paint. and then we got la casa pizza. it was good stuff.
then i get home and eat the pizza. not too bad, not too bad at all la casa.

tomorrow i think me and jill are going to hang out and watch donnie darko.
itll be fun times.

so im gonna go to bed soon, after i watch the eclipse.

goodnight.

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 01:25:14 GMT

i trust you.

thanks jess.

so im not grounded anymore.
and im going out with jizz.
and...
yeah. im in an all around great mood.

Wed, 06 Oct 2004 01:58:16 GMT

and so....

ends the saga of me john nikki and samm going to ward melville.

Tue, 05 Oct 2004 16:26:10 GMT

teenage mutant ninja turtles.
teenage mutant ninja turtles.
teenage mutant ninja turtles.
teenage mutant ninja turtles.
teenage mutant ninja turtles.
teenage mutant ninja babies.
what?

anyway. since i can update this in school, and i have nothing better to do in school, i might as well, eh?
anyway. this is a reminder for myself.

picture of washburn

there we go.

ill see you all later.

Mon, 04 Oct 2004 17:02:16 GMT

Remember this so i dont have to search it later:

General
by Dispatch

Album : Bang Bang
Submitted by : Bill
Corrected by : Andrew Boivin

There was a decorated General with a heart of gold
That likened him to all the stories he told
Of past battles won and lost
And legends of old
A seasoned veteran in his own time.
On the battlefield he gained respectful fame
With many medals of bravery and stripes to his name
He grew a beard as soon as he could
To cover the scars on his face
And always urged his men on

But on the eve of great battle with the infantry in dream
The old general tossed in his sleep
And wrestled with its meaning
He awoke from the night to tell what he had seen
And walked slowly out of his tent.

All the men held tall with their chests in the air
With a courage in their blood
And a fire in their stare
It was a grey morning and they all wondered how they would fare
'Til the old general told them to go home.

He said,
"I have seen the others
And I have discovered
that this fight is not worth fighting
And I've seen their mothers
And I will no other
to follow me where I'm going.
So take a shower and shine your shoes
You've got no time to lose
You are young men you must be living.
Take a shower and shine your shoes
You've got no time to lose
You are young men you must be living.
Go now you are forgiven."

Yeah...

But the men stood fast with their guns on their shoulders
Not knowing what to do with the contradicting orders
The General said he would do his own duty
But he would extend it no further
The men could go as they pleased
But not a man moved
their eyes gazed straight ahead
'Til one by one they stepped back and not a word was said
The old General was left with his own words
Echoing in his head
He then prepared to fight

He said,
"I have seen the others
And I have discovered
that this fight is not worth fighting
No, and I've seen their mothers
And I will no other to follow me where I'm going
So take a shower and shine your shoes
You've got no time to lose
You are young men you must be living.
Take a shower and shine your shoes
You've got no time to lose
You are young men you must be living.
Go now you are forgiven."

Yeah...

Go now you are forgiven
Go now you are forgiven
Go now you are forgiven
Go

Go now you are forgiven
Go now you are forgiven
Go now you are forgiven
Go oh

Go now you are forgiven
Go now you are forgiven
Go now you got to be got to be got to be got to be got to be yeah

Mon, 04 Oct 2004 17:01:06 GMT

well, since i actually have the chance to do this, im updating in the middle of school.
what are the chances of this working?
yeah. i dont know either.
anyway. today was pretty good. the only bad part was that i had to eat a bologna sandwich because i didnt have anything else for lunch, and i couldnt scrub money off of someone.
so im sitting in digital photography, and i finished that easy-ass quiz. and tracy's singing "im not okay" by My Chemical Romance.
so its good stuff.
and today im gonna start filming my italian video.
fun stufffffff.
im out--

i....dont know.

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 23:23:57 GMT

hello there, the angel from my nightmare.

so yeah. today wasnt great. it was pajama day and i matched pretty good. and i got to go to ward melville with john nikki and samm. thats always fun. the W.M. kids are good people. then after that i rode my bike randomly to katies to "give her stickers that nikki wanted me to give her." yeah. that was the reason. so anyway. me and her really need to hang out. cause its kinda depressing. (when i say depressing... i mean depressing in my terms. applied to anyone else, this would be about as depressing as losing seventy five cents. becuase i rarely ever get upset.)

anyway.
tomorrow is twin day! thats gonna be fun stuff lemme tell you. im gonna be Jizz's twin. oh boy. girls clothes again during spirit week?
who knew?

im out

one last thing before i go to bed.

Sun, 26 Sep 2004 07:08:43 GMT

I
♥
Katie